urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland queenofsnotland queenofsnotland 2005-09-04T07:13:14Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland:1855 2005-09-04T07:13:14Z 2005-09-04T07:13:14Z So I have been thinking about leaving work and this country for a while.I just found out some info about working in England and it seems I dont need a visa since my mother was born there so I will be looking into it alot more seriously now.I know it will mean leaving behind some important people but they will move on without me and some are even more than happy to join me in my quest for a happier life *hint, hint* you know who you are.. <br />I would love to get into photography or propagation which may allow me to venture a little further than factory work or nannying, something I don't wish to do again unless it is absolutely necessary.<br />Right now I am planning my 'fairy garden' for a little excitement and creativity and it shall become part of an ongoing thing which will become the envy of all of you mwwwahahahhaa..<br />Love you guys xoxox I shall return soon.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland:1740 2005-09-03T11:41:55Z 2005-09-03T11:41:55Z Ok so I need to change my looks and I need YOUR help so if you are reading this give me lots of feedback please.Piercings and tattoos included along with hair styles colours and anything else you can think of so stop reading this bullshit and get thinking.......please =) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland:1496 2005-08-27T13:11:23Z 2005-08-27T13:11:23Z If having new friends in my life will ruin my friendship with others then what is the point in going on..Please stop trying to compare yourselves to others.I love you all in individual ways and you all mean the world to me.Just because I get along well with another person as well doesn't mean you and I have to go our seperate ways.Thats not what I want..and I know its not what you want either.<br />* Words of wisdom..don't lick jelly crystal packs before going to work...* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland:1236 2005-08-22T23:48:03Z 2005-08-22T23:48:03Z To begin with I never thanked Alice for the wonderful pic she told me to use on here so Alice if you are out there somewhere and haven't vanished into thin air..thankyou..You are wonderful and I miss you.*sobs*.<br />So its 9.30 in the damn morning and I dont start work until 2pm so why am I awake? Well I guess I need to get creative before work and start working on Pastels mobile as there are several thousand holes to punch and a lot of circles to be threaded..Damn and now I know why I never went to kindergarten hahaha.Girl if you are reading this you are in for a shocking surprise =).<br />The weather looks grim yet again and I know we are in for more rain which doesn't help me get motivated..All I want to do right now is curl up in a ball and roll away into a ditch never to be found again..No doubt I will one day try that after drinking a little too much only knowing my luck the so called ditch will be a hole they use for golf and I will end up looking rather perculiar.<br />Ellen, thankyou for being such a wonderful friend ..you have no idea what you are in for if we ever get together...Ohhhhh the good times ahead haha..woohooo one big party I say.<br />I guess I should call it a day and go pay some bills while its still early..then its just me, my music and my artwork..Pastel...see how much time and energy I put into these things for you.But you know I love it and enjoy hearing your reaction to my stunning artwork lol.Stay away from gobstoppers while I am smsing you and here's hoping you smell a little better in the next few days....damn salmon juice....rofl..You had me laughing for hours with that one.<br />Anyone else who is reading this...why...no really I mean its nothing special..just me crapping on to Norton..my beloved computer =).<br />bye for now but now forever.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland:809 2005-08-21T06:48:24Z 2005-08-21T06:48:24Z This could be a bitch session so if you dont want to read it then go away.<br />I am so hurt and pissed off right now I feel so numb.Why do we never talk anymore.Why is it so hard to reply to my e.mails or pm? I care so much about you and yet you seemed to have vanished from my life forever and I feel it is my fault for telling you all these personal feelings I had.If you have a problem with it then why wont you talk to me....after all I thought thats what friends did but now I am lead to believe otherwise.I still care about you and regardless whether or not you choose to speak to me again it will never change the impact you have on me.There is and always will be a special place in my stone cold heart that will be treasured by the good times we had together.I miss those times more than anything in the world and the heartache I carry with me will never cease until the day I die.<br />I know you may never read this but if you do....you know who you are and you also know where you can reach me.I will be waiting for you and I will wait forever if thats what it takes......<br />-end- urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland:700 2005-08-15T13:26:04Z 2005-08-15T13:26:04Z The smile upon your face brought more happiness to my life than I ever felt before.my body aches to be held by you and yet knowing we will never be together means more pain and heartache than I have ever felt throughout my entire life.<br />You're eyes shine like the moon reflecting on a lake of frozen tears that i shed every night we are appart and when we are together it is like a perfect sunset that has melted my sorrow.<br />Never in my wildest dreams would I have believed such a person would enter my life in these troubled times and yet here I am falling deeper into your mesmorizing gaze and being pulled in by the strong force you have over everyone whos hearts you have touched.<br />You have taught me more about myself in the months we have known each other than I have learnt throughout my whole life yet you still insist you are nothing special...<br />well I am here to tell you that life simply would not be life without you.You have given me so many precious memories to hold close to my soul and remind me of the wonderful, caring and inspiring person that you are..<br />I love you with all my heart and only hoped you felt the same.It is my one and only true wish that no matter how hard i try....will never be fulfilled. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:queenofsnotland:300 2005-08-14T09:07:08Z 2005-08-14T09:07:08Z So here I am sitting here pondering the weekend that has almost ended and the fucked up week I will have at work.This new job is too stressful and I don't think I will keep it for much longer once Kelly gets back from Europe.The fact that I cannot take time off for the next 8 weeks is going to kill me but I plan to go away once she gets back and party hard if I decide to make it back up to NSW.So Ellen and Pastel if you ever read this you guys are in for a shock because so help me I will see you if its the last thing I do.<br />I have been busy letting my wild childhood creativity take hold this morning trying to make something exciting for the wonderous pastel.<br />Oh well thats it for now..I am over this journal thing already..Guess I just dont have what it takes.